Free time

No body in the world has enough free time. I need more free time! I am so happy in my life but I want more free time. I don't know why my senior year is my hardest year. I'm supposed to be having fun and enjoying it. Instead I'm in the two hardest classes I've ever taken, and I did a whole extra season of sports. I just really stacked it on this year.

The thing that uses up most of my time is also what makes me happiest in life. I wish I had more free time to spend it on her, but I already spend so much time with her, and I don't know why but I still want more time with her. It's a constant cycle. I have no free time, if I do I spend it all with her, then when I have free time I wish I was with her. And when I have no free time and no time with her I just wish I was with her or at home with free time. I am very happy in my life but it's all getting so crazy.

I'm stressed and need time to relax and enjoy my day a little. I wish she could play all my video games with me and be with me all the time but she can't. And it sucks, but I Sam happy with spending all my free time with her even if it means I don't get much time for video games and movies and what not. I suppose the best free time is with her. I am happy, and so is she. 

Recipe

The recipe for the Jeremy coney special. You'll need chocolate, whipped cream, peanut butter, caramel, vanilla ice cream, Reese peanut butter cups, Oreos, rolos, kit kats, chocolate covered peanuts, cookies, vanilla wafers, white chocolate, lettuce.

So you want to start by melting what you can, like the chocolates and that stuff. You will want to then put the lettuce in the bottom of the bowl and them cover in all the cookies and candies you chose. Then drizzle the melted items over it like dressing like a salad. Now obviously this may seem excessive, but to me it's the only way to get rid of the strong dirt taste you get when eating lettuce. But sense it has lettuce then it's healthy. So eat up and enjoy! 

Loyal

       I believe it is possible to be completely loyal in a relationship. There are so many people In relationships this is obvious. Another obvious fact is that there are a lot of people that are unfaithful and disloyal. A relationship can be so much better if you can just be completely faithful to that person. It is all about attitude and what you allow yourself to think. If you can do this then it will make life so much better.

       If you can be completely loyal there is no room for dishonesty and sadness in a relationship. You can look your significant other in the eyes and just genuinely mean it, no I did not cheat, no I did not think that. It can bring you so much closer. It makes everything so much better then having to try and come up with a lie after lie. It will bring you closer together and give you a sense of belonging to a person and having someone to be completely honest and trusting of. And that's a good feeling. So you should definitely try and commit yourself fully. There's no desire to talk to another, no desire to touch another, no desire to think about another. And maybe you don't want to think, talk, or touch another but you do it for some stupid reason. You have to go somewhere and do something, just give full effort to avoid other people that can give you those chances to cheat. And that is just as good as completely avoiding them, and skipping what you have to do. If you can do that life is good. Just you and your significant other.

Snow Day

         I had a real good day on my snow day. I woke up at like 830. I got to sleep in a little bit. I got a bunch of time to play my new game I got. I got really far in my game and it was real fun. I pretty much just played the game. I then took a shower and ate some food. I didn't leave my chair much. I was happy all day. I then had to go to my basketball practice and that was real fun. I enjoy those practices. I then got home and showered and went to Kendall's house! We made ravioli and grilled cheese. We watched the second lord of the rings, I was real proud because she actually watched it whole thing. We ate popcorn, peanut m and ms. And then some starburst jelly beans. We are going to get real fat with each other. It was an awesome day and I hope we have more snow days. 

AP Bio

       So I'm in AP Bio and it really sucks. It is really hard and I am stressed out by it a lot. We had a test Friday and last period and it was rough. The whole class did terrible on the multiple choice. And I don't know how I did on the essay. I don't know if it's going to be bad or not. I really don't want to ruin my GPA but it is hard. I stress out about it a lot.

       I study a lot actually for how much I study for other tests. Between ap bio and calc I study a lot more than I have in the past. I usually didn't have to study at all but now I have to a lot. I don't necessarily not like it, but even when I study I still don't get It that well. I have never felt like this where I didn't get something for a long period of time. I usually understand within being explained a few times. But with AP it is a lot harder. 

      The material isn't that hard. I think I could be able to understand it. It is the pace of the class that kills me. We do like 4 chapters in like 2 weeks and then take a test. We add labs in that don't help learn the concepts at all they just add to the frustration and homework. The teacher is good I just wish we could slow down and learn about the stuff in depth and not go crazy fast. I hope I end up finishing with an A this year. I've done good so far! 

Basketball

          I can not wait for basketball to start. I love the sport it is so much fun. I just enjoy playing it. I like being tired, it doesn't bother me when I'm playing basketball. I don't mind using up a lot of time playing basketball. I don't mind being tired and stressed for basketball. I just love everything about it! It finally starts after this week. This week is gym conditioning. Last week was outside conditioning.

         We have a new coach and he is changing what we are doing by a lot. I can already tell there are differences is attitude already amongst the players. The running times for our players were so much better. People were giving full effort and not dogging it the whole time. We have had problems with that in the past, but not anymore. The new coaching staff has brought new excitement and skill into the program. I personally can not wait to play.

        They have already gotten us new away jerseys. We have new practice gear. The shorts actually fit and the jerseys makes us look halfway decent. We have new shoes already that will be In before the practice rather than starting and playing for three weeks without shoes. We get to practice more modern ways of playing and skills. Everything is new and we are all ready to start the season and hopefully do something great this year. 

Regret

        I regretted not taking theater my senior year. I really wanted be in theater but it wouldn't work in my schedule. All of junior year I was looking forward to being in the class and having a lot of fun. I was supposed to be in it with Brock. I was looking forward to having Mr. Howell has a teacher. He is really cool.

       I couldn't take the class because my AP calculus class is the same period as theater. I told Howell and Brock that I would be in the class. I wish I would've taken the class because It would've been a lot of fun. I apologized to Brock and Howell because I really felt bad. I really wanted to take it but I couldn't not take the class. It sucked. I really wanted to take it and still regret not taking it. 

Regret

        I regretted not taking theater my senior year. I really wanted be in theater but it wouldn't work in my schedule. All of junior year I was looking forward to being in the class and having a lot of fun. I was supposed to be in it with Brock. I was looking forward to having Mr. Howell has a teacher. He is really cool.

       I couldn't take the class because my AP calculus class is the same period as theater. I told Howell and Brock that I would be in the class. I wish I would've taken the class because It would've been a lot of fun. I apologized to Brock and Howell because I really felt bad. I really wanted to take it but I couldn't not take the class. It sucked. I really wanted to take it and still regret not taking it. 

My Weekend

             Well my weekend was really good. I had a lot of fun. Friday we lost sadly, but football is over now. And if football is over that means that basketball is starting. Friday night after the game me and Kendall spent time together. Friday day I had to spend all day at the school with the team. I slept in that day and it was nice.

      

            Saturday I had to wake up early to go to future cougar league. I got to help the kindergarten through second graders play basketball. I was responsible for the Larry bird drill. That drill is really just the x layup drill. I was teaching them how to do layups and that was fun. None of them really did it they just ran around and shot the ball. They are all to young to actually know what they are doing but it's fun anyway. After I went out to breakfast with Brock and EJ.

 

          Saturday day I watched Kendall play volleyball. They won the first game. Then I went home and slept between the toe games. They lost the sectional championship in close games to west view. She cried a lot. Then we went out to eat and went back to my house and watched movies. After that I went to EJs house. Sunday she had work and after that we spent the day together just laying around. It was an amazing weekend. 

Inner Animal

        I would want to be a big white tiger. Like a twenty foot tall white tiger, with blue eyes. I have always loved tigers and always wanted to have one as a pet. They are so good looking but are always strong and can kill. They always look so humble. The tigers that have black and white stripes are the best. I definitely would love to be a great white tiger. 

        I would have a major role in Americas new military. I would serve as the main front line threat. I am too big and my muscle would be to hard to be hurt by any normal bullets. I would rule the battlefield and help the U.S. achieve world peace. I could save a lot of lives and never lose a fight. 

       I would make a huge impact on the world. No one would be able to kill me and I could beat all who want to hurt the world. I would save a lot of American lives. I would make the world a better place and rule the war. I could change how everything in the world works. No one would ever challenge me and world peace would be achieved.

Embarrassment

        Well one day after practice I had a small embarrassing moment. I got a good laugh out of it and so did some of the other football players and the coaches. I stopped by the coaches office and asked them a question and I got my answer and everything. Well after they told me and neither of us had anything left to say we had a small moment of scilence. After a moment I thought okay I'm out of here. I decided for some reason to say "bye" in the weirdest way possible and I sounded like a sheep. As I was leaving I could hear all the coaches laughing and everyone behind me laughing. I was embarrassed. 

My House

        I walked into my house and saw a little baby puppy on the ground in front of me. My mom has got me a husky puppy. I have always wanted a husky puppy. I have been trying to get her to give me one for years now. I named the puppy Samantha! I call her Sam for short. I always liked that name because of the movie I Am Legend with Will Smith. I wasn't going to let my dog get bit by a crazy zombie though.

        

        I take her on walks every day! She is so much fun and she listens so good. She is always attentive and listens to me really good. She has lots of tricks like running to the fridge and getting me a water! At night she lays next to me and keeps me warm with her big warm coat. She doesn't shed though because she is perfect. I give her Scooby snacks every morning and night, and when she does tricks. She is never ever going to die and I will always have a best friend! 

Poem Impact

           Two roads diverged in a yellow wood. And sorry I could not travel both. And be one traveler long I stood, and looked down one as far as I could. To where it bent in the undergrowth. The Road not taken by Robert Frost was a good poem. That's all I can remember from memorizing it last year. I used a lot of time to memorize it and it caused me a lot of stress. I really hate memorizing things and it was hard for me. I got it perfect in the class presentation, but I can't remember it much now. It made me think about how, and if I ever take the road less traveled. I found that I did and that my life is not like everyone else's. It made me think and reflect upon myself a little. It was a good experienced and I liked it.

Homecoming

            The sight of my house alone is a sight of relief. I love seeing the grey painted garage open to the white and black scratched garage door. It's a sight I've seen hundreds of times, and it's a nice feeling to know you are finally home. I like walking in and seeing my dogs and family excited to see me. I coming home and seeing my bed and watching tv and just relaxing, unwinding from the long days at school.

             The smell of my garage is the first thing I smell. It's always a dirty, oily smell. It's a nice familiar smell I don't mind smelling. Then when I open the door I can always smell my dogs waiting for me at the door. Sometimes there is cooking going on, my dad always makes stir fry and that's got a strong odor. I oddly like the smell of my room even though it's got a small hint of sweat from all my sports gear. 

           The feeling of my bed is a great feeling. Finally getting to take off all my school clothes and putting something more comfortable on. Taking a shower and feeling the warm clean water is always nice after a long practice. I get to pet my dogs and feel their soft fur. Taking off my shoes is one of the best feelings.

          Taste is a weird one to think about. When I get home I often get at least a water, hopefully my dad has made some tea that I can drink. I usually always eat after my shower if I have time. I like chocolate a lot. My dad often has grilled hotdogs or pork burgers made and that's my favorite to warm up.

          The sound of coming home is nice. The sound of my car door shutting in the closed garage is one of my favorite sounds, it is kind of a reminder that you are finally home. And the sound of my dogs barking as loud and often as they can. And the sound of their nails hitting the kitchen floor as they run around me waiting for me to pet them. The sound of the running water of my shower, and the food cooking is always nice. Coming home is always nice. 

Who's Line Is It Anyway?

           Well I was on the show and it was a lot of fun. I got to do the sound effects and I didn't know what to so at all. It was really hard. They are really funny though and they know how to make it funny anyway. I was chosen randomly and so that's how I got on the show. I had to do the game where I make sound effects for the guys acting out a scene. I didn't really know what to do, I was a little embarrassed. I didn't know how to do any effects or how to be funny so I didn't do much. I felt a little stupid but that's okay it was fun. 

Free Write

My grades are annoying me. I got a 97% on my psychology test and my grade is still only a 87%. That's unacceptable for me, but he will not give me any opportunities to get my grade up. My AP Bio grade is at a 92%, which all I want is a 93% but it won't go up. I hope the essay I turned in will be higher than 92% so I can get a solid A. My Calculus grade is also at a 92% which should go up easy because the next test we take is a take home test. These classes annoy me and drive me crazy. It should not be this difficult. I am putting in the work and doing my work but the teachers are making it so much harder than it has to be. 

Pick Me

          I know you like her a lot man but you can't do this. I have been here for a long time, and we've had a lot of good times. You've only been with her for like a week. I think you need to just take a break from her man. She isn't good for you. She is trying to make you stay away from me and it's not good. 

          I have always been a good influence on you. I always get you to do your homework. I make sure you understand what's important and what is not. All those practices we have been through. All the conditioning we have been through it was me and you. All of the times we have been in games together. It's always been me and you against the world. You can't let her make you stop hanging out with me.

          It's been me and you sense 8th grade. You have only been with her for like a week. She is ridiculous and trying to make you never talk to me. You guys can have your space, but that's ridiculous. We are good friends, and always will be. Don't let her try and cut me out. All the good times and memories we had. All the good and fun memories we are going to have. You need to pick me, and don't let her control you.

Suicide Texts

F: I don't want to live anymore.

J: Don't say that man.

F: I'm serious life sucks.

J: Why do you think that?

F: Because I got in trouble and now I can't do anything.

J: Well how long are you in trouble for?

F: A week or more. Now I can't see my girlfriend.

J: Well it is just a week, is it really worth ending your life?

F: No but now we might break up.

J: I am sure you guys won't break up it is only a week.

F: I don't know, this is pretty serious.

J: You should at least wait a week and then see what happens. 

F: Maybe you are right but I know we are going to break up!

J: Well even if you do it isn't worth ending your life!

F: You are right. I am glad I talked to you.

J: No problem bud. Just don't do anything rash. 

F: I won't, I won't. Don't worry! 

Plane Letter

    Dear Reader, 

               To whoever is reading this, all I ask is for your attention. I ask that you just see this through and read the whole thing. My name is John Wayne. I have been working with the U.S. Government for the past 20 years. I am not proud of what my job was, but it had to be done. I know you make think of me as a bad person by the end of this letter, but please read it all.

                It's hard to pick where to start, so I will start from the beginning. I was going to college to be a computer engineer, and was approached my men in suites. They said they wanted me to join on of their special task forces in the FBI. They trained me to fight, shoot, and taught me everything there is to know about the FBI. I was sent with a team of 3 men to perform a special task known as Operation: Migraine. 

                This was not an ordinary operation and our one task was to eliminate all of the people named "headmasters". They are extraordinary beings that are proven to develop advanced physiological powers as soon as they hit the age of 18. They have to be eliminated for the safety of the country, and for the world. They can not be aloud to live. They are extremely dangers, and extreme stress can cause their powers to awaken early. The stress of being hunted by my task forces causes this to occur, and it often gets messy. I was pursuing a lead on this very plane.

              This newest lead is said to be one of the strongest. I learned that their birthday is next summer and got on a plane to eliminate the target as soon as possible. I do not make this personal, and feel sorry for the headmasters I have to eliminate. This is why I wanted you to read this. I am sorry that you had to be eliminated, and this is not personal. By the time you finish reading this I will probably already have my sights lined up on you. Good luck. 

My Last Day

         Well to start off my last day on earth I would wake up at 12:00 a.m. on the dot. That way I would have my full day. I would go straight to my girls house and pick her up. Then I would go to the nearest place and get donuts and milk. I would eat a lot of course. After that I would go to a nice car dealership and take the most expensive car I can, probably a Camero. I would probably go get my friend after that and take him with me all day to. 

        I would go on a joyride for sure, driving as fast as I can in the new sports car I got. I would probably go see my family and my pets. I would probably check and see what movies are out and go to a movie theater. I would eat movie popcorn and a cherry slushie that's for sure. I think I would then go and shoot some big guns for fun and shoot them a lot. 

       I would probably go to a fancy restaurant after the movie and order really good food. I would order at least 2 desserts and eat them all. I would probably go play a game of basketball real fast, not to much time spent on it though. I might sit down and play some of my favorite video games for a little while. I would probably take a nice long bath, and relax. 

      I love usher music, so I would probably listen to his albums and music throughout the day. I would spent dinner eating chocolate and a bunch of sweets. If I could sky dive it would definitely do that. I would probably finish my day by just laying down and watching movies. Making sure that I have my girl with me. Probably eating more food. I would send out a text to all my family and friends as the last thing I did. That would be a good last day. 

Tonight's Game

             We play Prarie Heights tonight in our football game. Friday night lights! It is an away game, at Prarie Heights. Both teams are winless, but we plan on being the team coming out with a victory tonight. I believe that our team is the better team, now we just have to wait and see if the new Central Noble team shows up. If the new Central Noble team doesn't show up, then the old Central Noble team might show up. The old Central Noble team is not good at all. That team is not allowed to show up, and we are not going to let that team show up. We are going to bring the new Central Noble team and destroy Prarie heights. 

             I play strong side linebacker on the starting defense. I get to run man to man pass coverage this game, so I'm pretty excited for that. I also have an auto blitz this game, should be pretty awesome. I get a little confused by the line ups their offense runs, and our autos for it. I am going to make sure that I clear up my confusion before the game tonight. I want to be number one in defensive points this game, and definitely have the roles and jobs to do it. Now it is just up to me. 

           We are on a 27 game conference losing streak, and that ends tonight. We are better than that team and have worked to hard not to get a win. I want to be apart of the new Central Noble team that wins. In football and in basketball. I want to destroy them tonight, and anything less is unacceptable. I don't want to set through another sad, quiet bus ride home. We deserve a win, and we want a win. Let's go! 

Break Up Letter

    Dear Girlfriend,

                  I think there comes a time in everyone's life where they need to make a important decision no matter how hard it is. I think it's time for me to make one for us. I no longer want us to be together. This is an end to us but by no means an end to us as individuals. This is not the end of either of our lives, and I want you to understand that. I have no hard feelings toward you, but the emotions and love is no longer there between us for me. I still care about you and wish for you to succeed and be happy in all the aspects of your life, but I will no longer be apart of your life. I know this may feel bad, and hurt now. You just need to take a small amount of time to get past this, and then begin the next chapter in your life. Love is one of the strongest healers in this world. I believe that you should find someone that will have that love and feelings for you and will be able to feel that way for a long time, and I can not fill that role. I will also find someone to fill that empty part of me, and wish the same for you. There is no hard feelings, and I truly hope the best for you.

                                                                                                  Best Regards, 

                                                                                                  Jeremy Coney

 

                  

Making a Difference

         I plan on making a difference in a simple way. I am not very skilled in many things, or at least not skilled enough to teach others. But I believe one of the things I am skilled enough to teach is basketball. Saturday morning basketball is a lot of fun to coach and be apart of. I like teaching all the little kids how to go through drills, how to shoot the ball, how to pass, how to dribble, and how to play basketball in general! 

          They look up to us high schoolers so much. The way they look and actually stop and listen to what we have to say gives you a good feeling. Some of the players that help coach don't set very good examples and don't give full effort, and that bothers me. I always give my full attention and full knowledge to the young players, because that's what they are. They are the young players of central noble. They are the future of the basketball program and I love the sport. I love the school, the team, the gym, the lockerroom, the coaches, and all the other players. So if all I have to do is coach these kids the best I can, and shape the future of central noble basketball in the process. Then that is what I am going to do, even if I look dumb or silly sometimes. I want to make those kids better, make the school better, and help the young players have a good time! That is how I plan on making a difference. It won't be a major difference. It won't shape the world by any means. But if it makes a few kids lives' a little better then I have made a difference. And I am happy with the small difference I made. 

Guest Speaker

               I think that what the speaker had to say was really important. I hope everyone in the auditorium listened and paid attention. Indiana is affect pretty badly by meth. I am not fully affected by meth. My dad is a police officer and I personally would never even consider doing meth. I know how bad it affects people and my dad has told me stories. I felt bad for all the kids affected and hurt by meth and the meth users. 

               I wish meth didn't exist. I think it's ridiculous that people would put that into their bodies. I hope I never have to be in a meth house or around any actual meth users. I hope my dad never gets into any real problems with meth users. I don't want anyone in the area to get hurt by any exploding meth labs. I want indiana to not be number one in meth production. I think it is sad that suicide is an option to some people. Hospitals need to be more cautious about babies being born to meth addicts, and should take the baby from the addicts. I think what the meth heads put themselves through when it comes to picking and scratching themselves is disgusting. The burns and injuries from meth labs exploding is terrible. Math is a terrible drug and should not exist. I don't want anything to do with meth. 

Don't "Throw Up" on your friends.

         One time when I was in a bad mood I got upset and started saying a bunch of stuff to my friend. I told him all about how I didn't think it would work out with the girl I liked. I told him how I think I am so bad at sports, specifically basketball. This is a big real to me because basketball is a large part of my life. I told him about how I wasn't sure if I was ever going to make it in college and have a good life after high school. It was just every single bad thought that came to my head while i was in that bad mood came out, and I told him all of it. I told him about how I wasn't sure if I was going to pass all of my classes in school. I talked about how I wasn't happy with my body and how I looked. I really just said anything and everything that was negative.

         Now I realize looking back how ridiculous it was to say all that. Most of what I said was exaggerated really bad. It wasn't really necessary at all. He listened and tried to make me feel better and talk about it but it didn't matter what he said that night. I was just in a really bad mood and there wasn't anything that could've been said, it was just a matter of time and getting some rest. Now he knows all of my small doubts and negative thoughts but it hasn't changed much. I think he realizes everyone gets in bad moods sometimes, and that all in all I am fine. 

           I could definitely apply the rules given in the book. It would've definitely been a good idea to just stop and wait a little while. I should've just waited till the next day and if I still felt really bad about it then maybe I could've said something. The book gives really good insight to what I should've done. I didn't know anyone really got that down on themselves like I do, and it's nice to hear about someone else's experience. 

Letter

Dear old friend, 

           We don't talk anymore but I wish we did. I don't think we have a problem with each other we just took separate paths. We used to be best friends but now it's just a hello every now and then. I'm not mad that we don't talk anymore, but i wish we did. I think that the only reason we don't talk anymore is because we changed. I went more into athletics and being noticed, and you stayed with the gaming and side life. I still have interest in the same things that we used to talk about and have in common, but I don't see you anymore to talk about it. I have tried to get a hold of you but it doesn't work much, so I stopped trying. We had a lot of fun times together, but our paths parted ways. I am not mad or sad about it, but I wish we could relive some of those days. We had a lot of fun together.

             I think our paths parted ways in middle school when you started getting really popular amoung our group, and you were always swarmed by people. And the people that swarmed you I didn't really like so it got annoying. I stopped trying to talk to you so much because they were just so annoying to me. I found some new friends and went more into sports and academics. I still play some of the games that we used to play all the time, but it's a lot less often. I wish we could just get back online and relax and have some fun like the old days. I would like to get into theater like you are now but I just don't have the time anymore. I also don't really like acting and singing, so it would be a struggle to me. It seems like a lot of fun and I wanted to take the class, but  I couldn't take the class this year because I had to take calculus. Maybe in the spring I can join theater and we can talk some more that would be fun. 

             The new expansion on the game we used to play is coming out in a month or two. I think it would be awesome if we could get back on that and play. We used to play so much, like all the time. I played all the time anyway, but it was always more fun when you get on. I was always better than you anyways! I spent a lot more time playing. It was a lot of fun and I can still remember all the stuff on that game. We were like the experts. Maybe I will talk to you some more when the next expansion comes out. That would be fun! 

                                                                                                     Sincerely, 

                                                                                                     Jeremy Coney

What Sucks

What sucks is that I have to come to school everyday for 7 hours and take classes that I have little interest in. I then have to spend 3 more hours after school at football practice, and some days I have open gym for basketball after football. Then I usually have calculus homework after that. I have to wash all my stuff and get ready for the next day. When all I really want to do is get on with college and take classes that are relevant and I have interest in. I want to go out on my own and do my own thing.

         I really just want to spend time with her but I have to do so much of all this stuff. The weekends always go way to fast and then the week starts all over again. I miss the summer and I want a new nice sports car and clothes that fit better. What sucks is that I want to play basketball everyday but I have to play football. I hate wearing my sweaty helmet with a chin strap that doesn't fit.  I have to hit people when I don't even like hitting them. It is always really hot out and it feels even hotter in all the football equipment.

        What sucks is that food tastes so good, but I want to stop eating so much! What sucks is that I am always tired and feel so dead until I want to go to bed and then it takes me like an hour to fall asleep when it is already late because the only time I get to spend a decent amount of time talking to her is at night. AP bio and calculus sucks because they are hard classes and I still need to get an A in all my classes, and especially these classes because they are college level. I don't know what I want to go to college for and what job I want to do. I don't know which college I want to go to or when to start applying. I don't even know how to apply. I don't know if my SAT scores are high enough or not.